9th May 15

did not feel like posting yesterday.

took two trades with tight SLs and both were hit. lost 71 points.

It seems nothing's working for me. The markets zoomed int the direction of my trade later in the day by 200 points and what did I have -71.

Feeling low and dejected but I am aware that would not help. Need to pick up the broken pieces and start afresh.

But how? Every trade going against me.

or am I making them go against me???

something is wrong. I need to find it out. seriously feeling very wretched.

have not let these darn feelings to effect any of my relations, which I am sure is a positive.

that's the only positive I am carrying. financially down and out. I ruined my account in no time.

ok enough of me bashing.

I WILL pick up. I know I am bad but I also know that only I can make myself better.

all sort of weird thoughts including pulling a trigger on my forehead has passed my mind in the last few days but I am stronger than all this filthy ideas.

worst case scenario. I will not be able to trade for a few months. no issues. I will come back stronger.

every time I am thinking something positive, something is making it negative but then I am making it positive again.

my positive will win the tussle for sure.

You lose if u stop trying.

7th May 15

better than yesterday.

lost just 64 points today. did lesser mistakes, but still did.

Points for the day: -174
Points for the week: -1100
Points for the month: -1100

No more trade today or tomorrow.

6th May 15

No I am not making newbie errors anymore. I am making pathetic, horrible, sick errors.

1. Took trade and even after it achieving my target did not sell it because of greed.

2. Averaged twice and kept moving the SL away from initial SL.

3. Did not book losses when they were less and let it fall apart.

4. Took more trades than was permissible.

5. SL was more then the risk.

Ridiculous. Wretched. Hapless.

Points for the day: -760.
Points for the week: -926
Points for the month: -926.

My "so called" confidence is shaken a bit. If I don't improve now, I never will. There is no way I can recover these 926 points this month but even if I am able to recover 300-400 points I would have done some face saving at least.

and yes, by the way its in downtrend 'cuz I of the lower low.

5th May 15

Absolutely horrendous day.

Had not idea what I did today and why.

Took Six trades and closed ONE from yesterday. Why? What was I thinking. Had 3 open trades at one time. No tracking of trades.

Revenge trades? May be.

Absolutely pathetic.

Lost 19 points today.

Points for the day: -19
Points for the week: -166
Points for the month: -166

4th May 15

tremendous flawed start to the new month.

1st trade was placed as I missed a move. It was in the middle of the day range. None of the DP were near.

2nd trade was better as was near DO.

Both trade taken out by a plunge in the market.

from the moment of the first trade, market was in a range of 18650 to 18590 and was wrapping the 21 EMA like a twiner. Did it give any indication of the plunge?

Points for the day: -147
Points for the week: -147
Points for the month: -147

broke rule of "2 max trades" and took another trade @ 14:37 @ 18505. Not a Bracket Order but a positional order. Will look to book around 18750.